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if i told you the truth it would sound something like this,



i don't like the feeling of bare skin on leather couches or getting cramp in my feet.

i used to have these bruises on my ribs, but it's so long ago now that i cannot even remember how i got them in the first place –  

so really there wasn't much point in telling you that.

i've never missed a train. but last week i did. and almost once again today.
it's funny,

"you spend all your life waiting for a train then  three come along at once."

wait - no that's not right.

i get brief scars that wish they were more permanent,

and presently i will have more bruises than i can count and more stories that go nowhere but all end with me falling asleep somewhere cold and waking up wanting orange juice.


really - i'm just being silly when i take lot's of photographs.
the sun is usually setting, and i don't even know how the flash works and –
i'll never get them developed anyway.

i have too many negatives hanging from the walls and ceiling in my room.
i don't know why. they just make me sad.

i don't drink coffee. but i like writing about it,
and even if could justify paying i wouldn't go to star bucks and sit there all day.

i'd feel ugly and pretentious.

and so i don't drink coffee.     

but i like the smell of it. and cigarettes.
i'm probably a hypocrite.

but i'm sure everyone is sometimes.

or maybe they're just a good liar?


i like acting because it's not putting my persona on the line.
it's just making people smile or laugh or cry. and if i'm honest –
it's quite empowering.

and if i'm really honest, i love crying on stage because i can say

"it's okay, i'm only acting"

and the people will smile or laugh or cry.


there's this place called "skeleton junction",
in which the train never stops.

but i had this thought that if i wasn't on a train -
and if were wearing better shoes, that i might climb over the railings,
and i could just lie there on the grass.

drinking with the skeletons.

but when i sat and actually thought about it, i was rather fucking scared
of myself.

one time my mother told me how her best friends coat got caught in closing doors, and she was dragged off the platform, stuck down the side of a moving train and nearly impaled on the tracks.

and ever since i can remember, i've always been terrified of falling down that gap as i get on trains, and walking on the outside part of the pavement when there's heavy traffic.   

i used to jump awake at silly times in the morning and sometimes i still do.
though i have to admit it's really not as often.

sometimes i can't even read my own writing and my wrists hurt from holding books and turning pages.

i like the even numbers best,
but doesn't everybody?

i am fascinated by conspiracy theories, though i really don't know enough about anything to have a valid opinion. and i'm not sure i ever will.

i dislike swearing in front of children, and often i will smile at strangers.
i twist things to make them humorous, and usually it works.



i have this terrible feeling that there's going to be a awkward silence at my funeral and someone will whisper,

"are we supposed to clap or something?"
"this is called "positive feedback" and is the reason why three come at once."


god, i make myself laugh sometimes.



this is just me writing some of the rubbish that's in my head,
sorry kids.
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pengirl100and2 Featured By Owner Oct 19, 2012   Writer
I read the poem, and then I saw your username. wordcut-outs.
And all I could think is 'That's exactly what this is.' Little lines of poetry sewn together into this.
Pardon, I'm going for a cup of OJ now.
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wordcut-outs Featured By Owner Dec 29, 2012
Aha, it's true! Go forth!
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0hgravity Featured By Owner Oct 16, 2012  Hobbyist General Artist
I like how disjointed this is, like a page ripped from a particularly good quote book. I also like
the nonchalance in the voice.

punchy ending lines :thumbsup:
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wordcut-outs Featured By Owner Dec 29, 2012
That's such a lovely compliment, thanks very much!
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0hgravity Featured By Owner Dec 29, 2012  Hobbyist General Artist
welcome! :)
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forestmeetwildfire Featured By Owner Oct 16, 2012  Hobbyist Writer
you have been featured here!
i would really appreciate it if you could give some love to the other features and :+fav: the journal! :heart:
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wordcut-outs Featured By Owner Oct 25, 2012
Thank you so much! I will do now :heart:
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GravelsGargoyle Featured By Owner Mar 31, 2011  Student Artist
and for all these reasons, i will adore you
and your lyrical genius
and the way you leave lemonade and humid sunsets in my headspace
whenever i read your words.
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wordcut-outs Featured By Owner Jul 10, 2011
You are darling, thank you my dear!
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dejasenti Featured By Owner May 29, 2010
i love the way this ends. well i love the whole thing, but there's something settling about the ending.
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wordcut-outs Featured By Owner May 31, 2010
you're darling, thank you very much.
:heart:
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archelyxs Featured By Owner May 12, 2010
I love this. Your confessions are really rather fascinating.

"and if i'm really honest, i love crying on stage because i can say

"it's okay, i'm only acting"

and the people will smile or laugh or cry"
<3
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wordcut-outs Featured By Owner May 14, 2010
thank you very much
<3
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archelyxs Featured By Owner May 15, 2010
You are very welcome <3
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UpchurchDesign Featured By Owner Dec 25, 2009  Professional Interface Designer
:)
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wordcut-outs Featured By Owner Dec 25, 2009
(:
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Asherlee0099 Featured By Owner Nov 22, 2009
This is so amazing.
You are so amazing.

I can't even pick a favorite line because the whole thing is so gorgeous.
:heart:
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wordcut-outs Featured By Owner Nov 22, 2009
naww, i lovelove you.
thank you so much <3
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paperheartsyndrome Featured By Owner Oct 19, 2009   Writer
oh. wow.
and the ending--ouchhhh. but still it's some kind of perfect.
this is beautiful. i can't even say.
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wordcut-outs Featured By Owner Oct 20, 2009
gahh, oh you know -
thank you so so much. :heart:
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crashcoursewomb Featured By Owner Oct 17, 2009
"are we supposed to clap or something?"'


jesus, can. i wow.
you
yes,
never cease to amaze me.
so many lines, too many wows. o:
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wordcut-outs Featured By Owner Oct 20, 2009
eeeeek, naww thank you darling! <3
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Hyalma Featured By Owner Oct 17, 2009  Hobbyist Writer
Well, the rubbish in your head somehow makes sense to me. This is a very good piece actually. Well done!
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wordcut-outs Featured By Owner Oct 20, 2009
nawww, i'm so glad! thank you thank you :heart:
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the-chemical-factory Featured By Owner Oct 17, 2009  Student Writer
perfect :heart:
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wordcut-outs Featured By Owner Oct 20, 2009
you are! : D

thank youu so much <3
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GetYourGrip Featured By Owner Oct 16, 2009
i was going to quote parts, but
this whole thing is gorgeous~ :star:
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wordcut-outs Featured By Owner Oct 20, 2009
oh my gosh, thank you so much o: :heart:
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